Rage
It is my weekly off and as the situation warrants, I slept ul late in the morning. Of course there were intervals but in one of my sleeping moments, I had a very strange dream. I was so angry in my dream that I was shouting at my mom and my brother for some silly reason. I was so angry that when I woke up I was crying because of all the rage.
That's when I realize that I have so much bottled up feelings and emotions, maybe from my experiences and all the things that happened to me in senior year. I haven't healed yet from all the pain and disappointments other people and myself included caused. It's been a while since I cried and I miss doing it. It's not really healthy keeping feelings because they will erupt in your most unguarded moments, in my case, in dreams. It's like what Freud discussed that our unconscious would emerge eventually in our behavior and dreams. Right now I feel numb, I don't feel emotions the way I use to feel them. I miss that feeling and I miss being human, because for me the core of being human is the ability to define emotion and feel them.
I never realized I was so wounded. I expected so much from myself that when everything got so disappointing I just became indifferent rather than facing them.
I have to heal and I have to learn how to deal with my demons.
Maria Francia
Posted At 5:12:00 PM
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name is Ma. Francia Camacho Rosero.
Libran (go figure where her birth date falls) in the year 1985. Sees
herself as a leader,
she never avoid situations
where she can learn and improve. She
has a knack for reading and really likes her skin color
(hence, the inspiration for the picture) because it
makes her truly Filipino. She loves to sing while doing the dishes and dance
while cleaning. She loves to watch movies and laugh with Vic and Jose. She digs
Disney movies and still loves Lindsay Lohan although she metamorphosed to
something undistinguishable. She has great and big dreams
both for herself and family but find those dreams really selfish, since she
hasn't figured out yet what she can for her country. She would love to work for
humanity. But for the mean time she's just working on familiarizing herself with
every word in the dictionary. A destructive perfectionist, she loves to ask how
things work and likes to know why things works this way and not that way. She is
fascinated by the Arab Culture, Mafia and organized crimes and she really likes
History. She loves watching the news and listening to speeches. She likes
watching sports although she doesn't really know how to play them and one habit
she has been trying to overcome is stalking actors and actresses. She is a frustrated athlete.
And she's serious about her spirituality. 
