realizations

for the past week or so my life has been sort of lackluster and uneventful it gave me the chance to think where i am as a leader, friend and student this what came out of my realizations, i want to share it because these are important lessons i have learned that maybe you can pick out a thing or two.

where does stupidity and mediocrity meet?

answer: in a subject called Land Reform and Taxation. i don't hate the subject per se on the contrary i like the subject, well i love any subject as long as I'm learning, what i despise is the person pretending to be teaching the subject. he comes to class unprepared, he reads directly from the book, he seem to be ignoramus about the subject and what is insulting is that he expects us to absorb whatever he is teaching or pretending to be doing. its insulting to me as a student because the first meeting where we were supposed to discuss, i was ultimately prepared, i want to partcipate well because i like the subject, i want to learn about the dynamics of land reform, in short i was really looking forward to class but to my dismay the teacher was not earnest enough to prepare and make the class interesting. it was insult to my sensibilities because as a student who prepares i want the person standing in front of me to have at least a modicum of preparation so that he would seem plausible in front of his students. we pay good money to get the best out of our teacher not their mediocre best. i expect to learn and nothing more, the effect on me is that i hate coming to class, its a total waste of time and brain energy just trying to pretend to understand him when he isn't sure of what he is teaching. just trying to connect what he said to what's true is a puzzle in itself.

i want to tell him to straighten up, to teach us real things and teach us well, we are seniors already, for crying out loud. he doesn't expect us to be that gullible does he? we are thinking people who knows what's real from not, who's pretending and who's for real. its a shame that a university the boasts so much, doesn't even screen their teachers and they let this kind of teachers walk the halls of AB, the same halls that great people has walked upon its insulting to the point that its degrading.

this is a warning to all those who contemplates on becoming a teacher as a profession. do not, do not forget to respect the wisdom and sensibilities of your students, they may be your students but they have their own minds that think and that works on their own. remember to respect the minds that you are molding because they look up to you for inspiration and when they see this kind of people, they doubt, they become apathetic and that's the worse contribution you can give to the society, to the future.

of course, you can curse these teachers if you as a student, studies and does your part in the learning process, if you are just as mediocre and as stupid as your teacher then you don't have the right to complain. the two of you belong together.

in short, we have come along a way, we don't deserve that kind of teacher.

after my lets-forget-about-it-hold-up-experience i have found the courage to move on, may phone na kasi ako, its a Nokia 2300, it not a colored phone but it does have a Radio and its Polyphonic. i like it very much because it has radio, the earphones are plugged to my ears all day and i get to listen to the lastest and not so latest tunes even though i'm doing something else, multi tasking and the greatest thing is that i get to text nanaman. texting is a quite a big deal for me nowadays. details, too come. hahaha. if you want to get my number just ask me personally, i can't broadcast it here, you know. i think its a blessing because now i have a much better phone, i hope last the hold up that i experience will be my last, its traumatic.

last sunday, i read an article about leadership by John Maxwell it was accompanied by an article entitled Wanted: A Few Good Leaders, it had me thinking about my leadership skills, me being the president of the BeS Society, ironic as it may seem that in my last year of college many firsts are happening to my life. and i'm a bit reluctant and uncomfortable when it comes to embracing changes, that's why at times i'm caught in between and i become indecisive, i'm really alien to the role i'm assuming and the role BeS has to play in the whole spectrum of college organizations and the space where it operates, the image is so surreal i'm finding it difficult to fit in, not that i want to fit in but BeSSoc has to. the issues being raised and talked about in the Council, is superficial, i don't think the Council or the government's mandate is to make activities that projects people's popularity, i can't seem to find the logic and the rationale of the activities. its lost somewhere in the glitz and the glamour, i can't see the reason why council or government existed, i don't know, maybe its just my exasperation with what is happening to the government that i associate it with the closest thing which are student councils. the effect is that i am a bit cautious about the BeS activities we want to implement. i think i need to refocus what we are as a society and what is our role in the lives of the students. we need to get to basics, who do we serve and why do we serve them?

on the better side, i like my interpersonal relationships nowadays, it's blooming i have amazing friends.

and i just realize that i have my whole existence to fall in love, no need to rush. the idea is EXCITING!

where did that came from?

i think somebody just texted me.

Maria Francia Posted At 6:16:00 PM

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asar!

nakakaASAR talaga, as in capital ASAR!

dapat kasi di na lang nagTEXT!

dapat kasi di na lang nagPANSINAN!

tuloy, naguguluhan ako.

iniisip ko yung mga bagay na di ko naman dapat iniisip

sobrang ASAR ko, nakakasuffocate na!

dapat wala akong ganitong iniisip pero it occupies my mind 24/7 and i hate it dahil marami pa akong dapat isipin kaysa dito.

Maria Francia Posted At 11:51:00 AM

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hope

am i in love?

no, i'm in love with the idea of BEING in love.

in the light of my current emotional situation i have adapted a new credo, ang umasa talo! of course with the prodding of my friends. but somehow the integration of this adage comes with much reluctance because this means that the source of my inexplicable bliss has to be cut short. for the past few days i have been telling myself to stop hoping and dreaming but at the same time i cannot deprive myself the source of my happiness which nowadays come in trickles. i can't help hoping when the signs are there, i cant stop hoping when the only thing i'm holding unto right now is hope.

the Bible said that the greatest values are hope, faith and love. when you continue to hope and

be faithful then you can attain love. i'm hoping that this is applicable to me.

i will continue to be hopeful, i can't help it so shoot me!

to paraphrase FPJ, huwag mong aalisin sa isang tao ang pag-asa, maaring ito na lang ang meron siya.

wow! i quoted FPJ, this must be a dire situation!

Maria Francia Posted At 4:19:00 AM

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