of rodents, mazes and friendship

yesterday was very bad day or so i thought.

we were supposed to present our hamster which have been trained for weeks, to come out of our maze but the little twerp wouldn't come out. so we waited till 7 in the evening so that our professor could check it out and see if we really trained our hamster to come out of the maze. gladly, it came out before it cause us again utter pain.

while we are on the topic of pain, today was also supposed to be day that we will submit our written report again on the hamster. but because of technological difficulties and also lapses in judgement we were'nt able to do that. we had to cajoled and coax our professor into allowing us to pass the report late, he did allow us but not without consequences. the whole class is going to attend a special class because of that, the professor insisted that he can't deliver his lecture about learning unless all written reports are handed in. and because our group hasn't passed anything yet we were all penalized. i was humiliated out of my wits, now everybody is going to suffer because of us. we volunteered to get out of the classroom, so that we will not hear the lecture but our classmates insisted no and the teacher was kind enough to change his lecture so that he can accomodate our shortcomings.

i actually hate this teacher before this incident, i guess i have to rethink that.

moreover, our classmates stood by us and they did not leave us hanging. they were suggesting things that will benefit us both. it was so kind and nice of them really, i have never felt so humilaited and special at the same time, special because i'm surrounded by very nice and understanding people.

lessons learned:

1. never trust technology.
2. never ever cram.
3.LOVE YOUR FRIENDS AMONG ALL THINGS, THEY ARE GOING TO STAND BY YOU THROUGH THICK AND THIN.
4. and when the time comes, STAND BY YOUR FRIEND THROUGH THICK AND THIN.

don't you just love life?

Maria Francia Posted At 7:20:00 AM

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its my birthday

its my birthday.

but no we are not going to party just yet.

because there is so many things to be done. ( funny, i have time to write my blog!)

yes, the finals are just around the block, and this is the time when "professors" frantically shove projects down our throats, well that's figuratively of course.

back to my birthday... i'm 19 years old already and today my very good friends gave me a pocket dictionary, actually i really wanted that gift. so guys again thanks!

well, what do i feel about being 19. people thinks that getting old is such a bad thing, although there is a truth to that because more problems and challenges come in your life, but getting old gives you the chance to correct your mistakes and be happy in your life. but now i feel very lost, i think i'm in the point of my life when i'm agitated about starting a life of my own, but circumstances and consequences cannot allow you to do so, its as if i'm trying to find meaning in everything i do and also i'm very frustrated that my life seems to have no direction at all, its as if everything i do will lead to utter failure. when everything is so uncertain, and again another year has been added but it seems that in your life nothing has changed and actually has gone down the drain. how do you cope with that?

getting old is such a predicament

i wonder how people get by it.

well what can i say but happy birthday!!!

Maria Francia Posted At 8:54:00 PM

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colorgenics

i just had to share my colorgenics results, i feel that it is very accurate but please, i am not soliciting any sympathy. i just wanted to share....

At this time you are really feeling quite exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling that is going on about you and you are looking for some sort of protection from this state of affairs. Ideally you are seeking a peaceful condition and a tranquil environment in which you can be afforded the chance to relax and recover.

You haven't been feeling that great lately. Both physically and mentally you are exhausted. To your best friends, those who know you and love you, it shows. Your self esteem has been reduced almost to a minimum and in order to recover - and recover you will - it is necessary that you get away from it all, even if it be only for a few days.

You feel that you deserve far more than is being attributed to you, but there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realize that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

All of the stress and strains resulting from disappointment have led to agitation and anxiety. You have been going out of your way to make a good impression, but you have reservations as to the likelihood of succeeding. You feel that you have a right to accomplish all that you set your mind on but you have become helpless and distressed when circumstances have gone against you. The idea of failure is most upsetting and this can even mean utter dejection. You see yourself as a scapegoat and you feel everyone in your sphere of influence has tried to take undue advantage of you. You are trying to convince yourself that your failure to achieve standing and recognition is not of your making but indeed of those around you.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non-fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

i know i have been really down lately thats why i dont want to be around people as much as i can because i know i'm a lousy companion, i certainly hope it improves.

Maria Francia Posted At 1:14:00 PM

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randy orton.... 

Maria Francia Posted At 5:42:00 AM

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sharing

because i love you all, i want to share with you my joys, pleasures and of course sufferings. i haven't been updating you for awhile because of the uncanny hectic schedule i have that will be this way until the end of first semester. so just to give you an idea here goes, please no violent reactions because i myself have a lot to say about these "projects". let us keep quiet and absorb these painstaking ways to learning and ponder, is there no other way to go....

1. Group Dynamics
- the eternal assignment giver, we have to read pages 17 - 32 (thats not all) plus handdful of handouts and reporting. plus we have a quiz almost every meeting so that is every Monday.
- will have to write a paper about a certain play that was assigned to be watched.

2. Literature
- well, this one is light just reading assignments about Indian Literature, you know that stuff about the names you cant even pronounce.

3. Experimental Psychology
- as the name implies, yes we do have experiments. now our experiment is on hamsters. we are going to make a maze and we'll see if the hamster could get out of that maze, when treatments are applied.
- the professor is still pondering on giving us another experiment. i dont know why maybe jutst to make our lives a living hell.

4. Psychometrics
- well this is fun, we take Personality test to see, if we have mental defiencies or whatever. the difficult part is we have to provide manuals for these tests, which i tell you is no fun! really.

5. Spanish
- what's difficult about this is grasping words you have no idea, where it came from and actually expected to use it to go to hell. my professor barely speaks english and he expects us to learn it in three hours and as if he is explaining anything, more on imposing.

6. Basic Statistics for Behavioral Science
- well, this is learning on your own. you discover your ways, good but if you don't goodluck.

7. Filipino
- supposedly we have finished the entire course long before but it seems that the teacher has a lot of things in mind like papers, making us watch plays and the hellish mind games????

8. Art Appreciation
- its not enough that we have to sit three hours and listen to lectures, he have to perform our MUSICAL play, for crying out loud, they want us to sing???!!!

i know i have been using the word hell a lot of times because that is exactly our state right now, i haven't told you everything just the surface. its really exhausting and down right dumb-founding. its impossible to describe....

and so i wonder, what happens to us? is this the only way that we could graduate and have the distinction to be called educated? i say YES!!! we are going to finish everything one way or the other, sometimes more staisfactorily than the other but we are going to finish it nonetheless. what's most important is the lessons we learned through the process. if we have grown and learned something valuable, is what i think that most important aspect of that.

as of now, just give me the privilege to whine and ramble....

Maria Francia Posted At 5:15:00 AM

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