terse, brief, and concise

i realized that none of my blog entries are terse, brief or concise. i dont know why but words seem to overflow my mind into the computer, so here's my attempt to write something short.

so, what have i been doing lately. (in case any of you needs to know)

kept my notes and books from the first semester and i threw away those that doesn't belong so that i can make room for the other mess that i'll be making once second sem is here.

i already prepared my notebook for second sem, putting some designs, glue-ing my schedule where i can see it.

i'm reading I Kissed Dating Goodbye, its suppose to give me different prespective on "dating", not that in recent memory i have experienced one, but this will give me the patience to wait for the right one. (do i sound cynical? i'm just giving it a try)

what i have learn from the book i'll share later with you.

that whats keeping me busy and preoccupied.

so that's my attempt on terse, concise and brief entry.

Maria Francia Posted At 6:25:00 PM

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complete the sentence

i am...looking forward to another great semester of learning, not only inside the classroom but more importantly on the lessons of life.

i will...try my best to enjoy what's left of my sem break by reading all books i can lay my hands on and eventually copy every CDs i borrowed and spend some quality time with my family because i know, come second sem i won't be seeing much of my ohana.

i promise...to be good and responsible, really responsible not just lip service but tangible
responsibility not only because people depend on me but because i depend on myself and if i will be irresponsible then who would be responsible for me, so we should be responsible for ourselves and one another. (what's up with all the responsibilty?)

i will try...to release all negative energies i have for other people and start anew. think that
things happen for a reason and i cant do anything about that anymore, people may think less of me but if i let this affect me, then maybe they have the right to think less of me.

if my life now doesn't work for me... i will create my own mafia. (keep this a secret) i will invest on criminal activities that involves lots of money and drugs and casinos and gamblings, and see myself rot in hell...(okay you can drop the eyebrows, just joking. my life will work out fine for me, even though i am not that rich, i know money will never make me happy, take Maj. Gen Carlos Garcia as an example.)

i will never...take drugs. (period no ifs and buts)

the best thing about life...is that i know i am alive and people love for what i am and i love them just as much. i am really lucky to have a supportive family and a mother who is great cook, making life really easy. imagine this, after a tiresome day you'll go home and you'll taste the food mother has prepared for you and its as if you landed on cloud 9. so whatever happens, no matter how life sucks just think of mama's cooking and everything will be alright. i have brother, who i really can connect with and have a lot of fun togther and really really nice. i have a father who sacrifices physical proximity so that he can provide us with a comfortable life.

i really never appreciated my life but now i'm starting to come around and i feel really lucky, i can say that i love my life.

Maria Francia Posted At 1:11:00 AM

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great pix 

Maria Francia Posted At 12:13:00 AM

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random thoughts

i am enraged!!!!

grabe nasa limelight ang UST, pero not for good reason. naawa ako sa doctor ni Carlos Garcia naiipit siya sa mga attention-grabbing-and-tv-exposure-maniacs na congressman at sa responsabilidad niya sa kanyang pasyente. hello???puntahan daw ba si Garcia sa UST, hindi ba naman sila bangag at kalahati sino ba si Garcia in the first place para pagtuonan ng ganitong klase ng pansin? ok fine, corrupt siya but do you honestly believe he is the only one? bakit hindi sila humanap ng ibang resource person? baka mamaya mas marami pang mayaman at mataas na opisyales ang patuloy paring nagkakamal ng yaman. bakit hindi sila ang imbestigahan "in aid of legislation" minsan tuloy napapaisip ako, isang malaking joke at kalokohan ba ang mag patakbo ng bansa, at isalalay ang buhay ng mga mamamayan sa mga taong katulad nila? sana iniisp nila yun

kawawa naman ang mga Pilipino, mag punyetang taong gobyerno yan! hindi na naawa. ilang milyong pamilya ang nagugutom sa bawat araw, pero sila patuloy sa pagkamal ng yaman at patuloy ang pagnanakaw sa mga kawawang Pilipino. sana nakikita nila ang mga batang nagugtom at hindi nabibigayan ng sapat ng mga pangangailangan, sana nakikita nila yun. 15. 1% na insidente ng kagutuman, bakit nating hinahayaang mangyari ito?

the culture of corruption is deeply ingrained in our system, its ominous.

Maria Francia Posted At 10:43:00 PM

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whats up with all the noise

in the book of mitch albom entitled tuesdays with morrie, the wise morrie said that he doesn't know why people are so comfortable with noise and why are we embarrased by silence. indeed, i cant agree more, i have always belived that there is wisdom in silence, when you let yourself talk to itself and for a moment have its own conversation so that it will be in commune with the system working within. but what happens when you system is not in unison with yourself and the world?

that's where noise begins, we avoid the voices within us. we try to avoid the wiser thoughts in us, thats why we fill our heads with noise and clutter so that our system cannot converse and give us the most rational answers. because we know the conversations from introspection is the right answer and we are afriad of what it might say.

another things is that we are trying to conceal feelings that are very much affecting us. we feel that if the noise dominates we can ignore the feeling and act as if its just going to fly away like a bug.

yes, we are comfortable with noise because we dont want to think of our feelings and because we dont to face whats real.

right now, i want to hear everything in its extreme loudness, turn up the volume. i want the noise!!!

right now i'm comfortable with noise.

Maria Francia Posted At 4:04:00 PM

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pardon the cliche, "college life"

the past couple of weeks has been tormenting, financially, physically, mentally, emotionally and socially as well. we have learned to deal with every idiosyncrasies there is and we have learned to battle against the the simple joys and pleasures of life namely sleeping and eating. i'm not trying to glorify myself nor my classmates because what we have done is no way a feat compared with those who are trying to make this world a better place as their way life. but among ourselves, we the struggling student, the end of this semester and making it out alive is a feat in itself, not only the subjects passed or the assignments completed an accomplishment but the valuable lessons learned in the process was the crowning glory of everything. just as i have always said and thought of while we are painstakingly trying to meet our deadlines, we are going to finish whatever it is that we are doing, one way or the other. some, quite satisfactorily than the other but nonetheless we are all going to move on and get past this stage, the more important thing is what have we learn in the process. did we become good people, or just one of those.... that is the paramount consideration here. years from now, we will forget all the lectures and activities and the grades that we got from all the subjects that today we glorify and made the center of our lives, but we will never forget the values ingrained in us by the experience, this will be our most potent weapon, once the day of reckoning arrives. this will complete who we are and what differs us from the other. so while we are laboring and toiling our souls out for our precious grades, did we still have our values with us or it just flew away with the rest of our morals?

so what i have learned?

1. sleeping and eating is a privelege.
2. you may study till the crack of dawn but the test will not be the one you reviewed or studied for.
3. it pays to study and listen for the whole of semester not only for exams and major test, believe me on this!!!
4. you'll never know a person until you see him in a great deal of pressure.
5. now you know the essence of sem breaks, before i didn't see the logic of it, now i know and i think i love it.
6. you can plan all you want but things will happen not according to what you planned.
7. after college you can make a living out of the xerox papers that you have.
8. you think that college has shorter days of school, indeed, but most learning are done after school hours believe me.
9. personal lesson: why does it seem that the sun rises differently on other houses?
10. education is an investment of everything, if you give up, its your loss.

...and the list goes on and on but no matter how difficult it is, keep thinking that we will all get through we just have to hold on to our values and look deep inside, what will i learn from this, after all your there for the learning, right?

Maria Francia Posted At 10:31:00 PM

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life is worth living because of this people. looking forward to another great semester. good job everyone! 

Maria Francia Posted At 12:17:00 PM

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it has been one hell of a semester, we could not have not done it, if weren't together.  

Maria Francia Posted At 12:15:00 PM

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a hundred million miracles

you need to believe to see this miracles.

i have always believed that things happen for a reason and all of this is a connection of cosmic powers to fulfill the plans that the Omnipotent have for each and everyone of us. but along the way we encounter surprises that makes living a whole lot better, this miracles go unnotice but if we look deeper, we can see they are the miracles of the subtlest kind, we just don't appreciate them for what's their worth.

let me write a few of my own miracles:

1. being alive, what are the chances of me getting here on this planet experiencing the joys and pains of existence? it is because of miracles.

2. i'm studying, i consider myself priveleged for havingd the chance to learn and continue learning not only in class but through the process of education. its not only the lectures that we can learn from but also the everyday experiences we have in school which is also a good source of growth.

3. i have my family, although we are not financially blessed i consider myself rich beacuse my family loves one another and i know that whenever i need them they'll be around to help me.

4. i'm surrounded by good friends, i love these people dearly because they complete me and they complete my days, a frown would turn into a smile when they're around they may not know but they are really a part of me, all five of them, and of course those outside the group but i still consider my friends.

5. my GOD, yes i am owning my God, because we all have our ideas of our own God, and my God is exclusively mine, He is a miracle in more ways than one because he gave up his life for people like me, who doesn't deserve His life yet he still gave it up, unconditionally. He still provides and guides me whenever i feel downtrodden, He is my strength and my number one miracle.

after weeks of ranting and complains i feel that life deserves more than complaints from me, so here i am citing every miracle happening in our midst.

it is a miracle, when you find a person you truly love and who'll love you back.

it is a miracle to find kind people around you, even complete strangers.

it is miracle that we are all alive.

it is a miracle that in every storm there is a rainbow shining forth.

it is a miracle that in every frown there is a smile.

YOU JUST HAVE TO BELIEVE THAT THEY EXIST....

how about you what are your miracles?

Maria Francia Posted At 8:38:00 AM

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