negative vibes
what do you do when you become cynic and you can't seem to find the meaning in things that you see?
what do you do the emotions you feel are so temporal and very shallow?
what do you do when you start to question the wisdom behind everything that is happening to you?
what do you do when become pessimistic?
what do you do when you can't grasp the meaning and worth of something although you know the meaning and worth of this thing?
how can someone seem intelligent but inside can be stupid and clueless as hell?
am i allowed to be fatigued by life even though i'm just 19?
have i really lived at all?
what do you when you're happy singing and dancing but inside you're lonely?
is this a phase i'm just going through or is this growing up?
or do i just lack sleep?
whatever it is, its sucks big time.
don't worry i'm not suicidal.
suffocate: vb; to smother, to choke, stifle.
two weeks in school and i already feel suffocated. i can feel the tension, the competition and the intensy. it is so dense its difficult to breathe. its like everybody is on the prowl waiting for somebody to fall so that they can devour on the remains. pretty graphic isn't it? but thats exactly how i feel, the rush of events and things that needs to be done jolted people in a very dangerous degree, its difficult to tell who's who, i don't know if this is the surge of ningas cogon or everybody is trying to be on their competitive edge. their desires to take over one another is like a jagged knife they are scratching and clawing one another, of course to our detriment. why is everbody on the rush to be on top, its always the journey not the destination and how can we enjoy the journey when we don't even appreciate its existence. its very lonely and suffocating i dont want to go to school, the only bright side is that the subjects are mighty interesting but its difficult to concentrate when the "error variance" is so great. i hate it! i hope school becomes fun again and the people can go back to the way they were before, nice.
Maria Francia
Posted At 1:31:00 PM
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name is Ma. Francia Camacho Rosero.
Libran (go figure where her birth date falls) in the year 1985. Sees
herself as a leader,
she never avoid situations
where she can learn and improve. She
has a knack for reading and really likes her skin color
(hence, the inspiration for the picture) because it
makes her truly Filipino. She loves to sing while doing the dishes and dance
while cleaning. She loves to watch movies and laugh with Vic and Jose. She digs
Disney movies and still loves Lindsay Lohan although she metamorphosed to
something undistinguishable. She has great and big dreams
both for herself and family but find those dreams really selfish, since she
hasn't figured out yet what she can for her country. She would love to work for
humanity. But for the mean time she's just working on familiarizing herself with
every word in the dictionary. A destructive perfectionist, she loves to ask how
things work and likes to know why things works this way and not that way. She is
fascinated by the Arab Culture, Mafia and organized crimes and she really likes
History. She loves watching the news and listening to speeches. She likes
watching sports although she doesn't really know how to play them and one habit
she has been trying to overcome is stalking actors and actresses. She is a frustrated athlete.
And she's serious about her spirituality. 
